i can't let it go
Thursday, May 3, 2012 , 5:13 AM , 0 comments
assalamualaikum , maaf kalau blog ini lama tak update. aku buzy sangat , trust me :) semakin membesar semakin beban banyak dibahu ni . tapi nak berjaya kan kenalah berusaha .
firstly , i dont want to talk about book , exam or anything pasal sekolah . cukuplah dekat sekolah ye tak payah nak tambah dekat sini . i want to talk about my life :) back to malaysia ok .
"let by gone be by gone" ayat ini dah jadi kebiasaan kan orang cakap . aku tak tahu lah setan ape yang merasuk sampai lah petang tadi hati sebak sangat . bukan sebak sebab ape tapi macam i dont know how to explain it but it's very hurt . luka lama terbuka lagi , something like that lah . i dont know , i'm confused -..- what happened to me ? before that , kalau kita dah capai puberty ofcourse lah hormon kita dah lain kan . selebihnya , you learn sendiri je lah. so , tiba tiba teringin bukak older massages. that's very weird , i think my mind is out of control. let's continue , bila bukak massage S ni i can accept the fate. i'm cool bebeh but it's beginning , when i click on A's massage. HAHA , laughed like a crazy girl but the more i laugh the more my heart feels the hurt . onwards i started to cry. even though kita baru kenal tapi , entahlah it's hard to explain it. i rasa menyesal yang amat , it's all my fault. kenapa u kesian kan orang lain tapi bukan i. why u treat me like this ? huh , i remember the first time we meet , texting , on the phone for a long hours. HAHA , it's crazy okay . i think you dont believe it if i say that we had on the phone from 11.00 pm (around that) untill 3 or 4 a.m. can you imagine how long we talk :P 6 or 7 hours . HAHA , i miss that moment very much. ex aku dulu pun tak penah kitaorang buat macam tu. see ! how special you're. bila ingat balik , entah apa yang kita merapu selama 6 jam tu. lagi , you're caring :') that's why i like you. you respect me and accept me as i'm . i know that i'm not perfect as your pet sister , i know i'm not beautiful as your friends but you still tell me that i'm a beautiful .
punca we're not together is , about the true and dare GAME ! sumpah , aku benci game tu .
and pasal game -.- sumpah aku tak belas text kau waktu tu , that's my cousin . but you never believe :'(
if i have give a wish , i want to be a smarter student in malaysia. HAHA , tak berkaitan . adios :D